After abstaining for about 59 days when I relapsed..I didn't feel bad about the fact that i relapsed.But I was in fear about the fact that I might not be able to repeat my streak...that after 4-5 days i might again relapse. And this is exactly what happened today. I feel so freakin bad..I feel that I have changed from all the abstaining...and I do not want to go back to what I was before. I feel helpless.
Hey, you made it 59 days, it IS possible, you did it before, and you will do it again, and can go even longer. "You were on a bike, were riding for a long time, and have taken a couple of falls recently. Watch out for those potholes now, and don't focus on the next crash, focus on the beautiful landscape around you and how great it is being on a ride of a lifetime." Stay strong brother, send some pm's if you need to for a while, you're not alone!
I'm with you dude you can do it I am also restarting after I had a really good streak. You can do this.