Giving NoFap Another Shot!

Couple of months ago I tried doing nofap and was actually writing posts about my struggle with P but I could never last more than a week. Today i relapsed after like 4 days without PM and it just makes me realize how crazy I am. I've been trying to stop for so long but I keep sabotaging my self. I really couldnt care less if I watched P and M everyday but in the past 2 or 3 years i've developed some crazy fetishes and i think a lot of it had to do with my heavy drug use and all of my insecurities.

I've been drug free for 11 months now so I really know what addiction is like and how to treat it, but with this certain addiction it's really hard because I don't have the courage to talk about it to anyone. It's really hard if you dont express yourself but I guess that's what this community is for. On the other hand I've been working out a lot and I very recently quit smoking so I'm very proud of that, there's just one more nasty habit I have to get rid of and its PMO which out of all my addictions I'm pretty sure has been the most harmful to me.

One of the reasons I think this has been so harmful to me is because I have no confidence with the ladies and I'm very insecure about the size of my penis even though, at least from what I've researched, is smack dab average. I'm 6 ft tall and very handsome and the only one who has stopped me from having sex is myself. Next month I'm going to be a 20 year old virgin which really makes me feel like shit especially because I know for a fact that I'm very attractive and the only reason I haven't had sex is because I'm so insecure.

So my plan is to try to be more confident around girls and reach out to them more and not only the pretty ones that I like but pretty much all people in general because I tend to act a little introvert sometimes. I'm gonna keep it up with the excersice which makes me feel really good. I'm also gonna try my best with college even though I've never been good with school, and I'm really going to give this Nofap thing an HONEST chance because I'm tired of ruining my own life knowing that I have so much potential.

The only good thing about relapsing plenty of times is that you start to realize what things you do before you relapse and what kind of thinking patterns carry you to a relapse.

 

Lol i really dont think that's a good idea I've heard of people who suffer from erectile dysfunction because of jelqin and from what I've seen online it really doesn't increase the size of your penis anyway, even when it does it just increases by like half an inch. I'm super insecure about my penis, but I'm pretty sure trying to strech it everyday isn't going to help with my insecurity, If anything it will just make it worse. I have an average penis and I should accept that because i was born with it and if i find a girl who doesn't want to be with me because i have an average penis and she wants a monster cock she's probably not even worth it anyway.