Getting friends and girls [A journey]

I met 2 different interesting people that day. They were trying to be friends and send me back home. Both of them considered themself as "powerful people". Both of them also wanted to call my parents.

I have been a lot kinder to people around me since that day. 80 days ago my biggest problem was masturbation.

 

People with half the balls, half the intelligence, half the discipline tryna give me advice. And I cant be rude to them cause I depend on them. Is this life?

 

And jacking off to porn is better?

 

the cctv records the outsides of the house

 

Am in my maternal grandparents home for a few days. Lots of friendly people here (joint family). Staying off the internet will be much easier relatively, will also get my sleep schedule on point and I brought my books so I might even study a bit.

 

New lesson: Break out of your families' female circle. Go out and do stuff with the males of the family as you grow old. 13-15 would be the perfect ages to hang out and learn from elder males. Learn but think for yourself. By 16 a man should have a profound prescence outside the home. I wish this was common knowledge for me.

 

My family might be drugging me. What the fuck man. I think they are secretly feeding me pills to mellow me out. Fucking shit. Everyone is so delusional. Delusion runs this world. FUCK.
Or maybe its the wet dreams that mellow me out. Had them every 3-4 days back at home and Now I've been here 10 days and only had them once at the beginning. I am feeling a lot more motivated these past few days.

I am too real for the people around me. I say it how it is, without the fairy taled delusions these people have. Weak people cant handle reality. Delusions are a way out among other ways out like tobacco and ciggarettes and alcohol and weed

FUCKING shit

 

The only place I have is here. I post whats on my mind here in this thread. This thread is derailed AF.

 

I will go back to posting about what this thread is about

 

UPDATE
Looking back bruh I am a WILD person. I think I will be joining the army through officer training (NDA). Its one of the most difficult institutions to get into, so a good goal to occupy my days aswell. Adventurous life and a brotherhood, what could be better? I have also dropped the weird girlfriend chase I was on. I will be starting MMA next week.