Getting back into the correct way of handling things

I don’t know how to solve my problems and get what I want to get done done. But I do know that porn is not helping me and that it’s sapping me of my ambition and drive. That’s why I want to quit it. I’ve made it to 14 days before and I know how much fun it was to be me then and how everything seemed to make more sense even when it was something I couldn’t handle or was unsure about. I want to stop wasting my time endlessly in the bathroom and in my room not just watching porn or masturbating but using my phone or procrastinating either. I hope putting this to writing will be my calalyst that will finally put me back on track. On track to not giving up and succumbing to my desires that are instantaneous rather than long term. The kind of desires that put me down after realizing what I’ve done and all the precious precious precious time I’ve wasted. Just writing this will be my beginning and the end of what isn’t me, of what dominates me at times but will not again starting now. If you’ve read this far thank you and I hope you’ll keep me to my word and good luck with whatever endeavor you’re facing.

 

I’m still here at day 2-3 I’m not sure which. Just a quick update

 

Ok so today I relapsed

 

I’m back to day 0 but it’s the start of a new month so I’m using that to get me back on track

 

I relapsed again!! I finished some work for some summer programs I was applying to and felt like I didn’t need to get back on the no pmo grind

 

But ok how good it can make your life feel and how it can drive motivation so I want to keep trying

 

Ahhhh I relapsed again!

 

Ok man I’ll think on thay

 

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