Fucked up sexuality, rly need advice

English isn't my native language
trigger warning this post will include the description of sexual acts

I'm m19 and I do struggle a lot with my sexuality and the thougth of being gay.
In order to give u enough information I'll start at the beginning.
In kindergarten and elementary school I can't remember being strongly sexually or romantically attracted to anybody although I found some girls pretty.
Then in 5th grade I had a crush on a girl and six months later on another one.
Had a girlfriend but dumped her cause she wasn't the one I loved
Around that time porn entered my life when I friend showed me videos and a website
I began fapping to images of girls in my class, my fantasies/thougth and vids of porn of women masturbating, this escalated to lesbian porn, then foot fetish, then transgendered person and gay porn, but I only watched gay porn for some months because I was extremly disgusted by myself afterwards and it was more that I wasn't turned on something and then watched gay porn because normal one would be too boring.
I would fap for 2-3 times a day, coming late to school cause of fapping, going to to toilet in class to fap and even doing it on public trails in the woods.
For the next years whenever I kissed a girl at a party or slap her ass I would feel nothing
With 15 or 16, around the time I started with nofap, someone in my class bragged about his first time and called all virgins losers and I was so insecure about that so I decided to go to a street hooker.
I didn't fap for almost a week before that but I couldn't really keep it up even tho I was super horny before thinking about that experience.
I only got a weak erection licking her feet and she finished me with a handjob.
I felt so weak, defeated, emberassed and disgusted by mself in the afterwards.
I tried nofap but it was hard to get to one week and two were impossible, whenever I wasn't fapping the foot fetish and transgendered person stuff became less important and I was way more happy.
Around that time I sometimes had a voice in my head that told me to kiss a male friend like a demon although I didn't want to do it
One time I saw a dude and thougth that he really was attractive in the time when I watched gay porn
I met a girl online and met up with her.
She was really unattractive and fat but I was so horny so we sat on a bench and kissed, I grapped her ass and tits but my dick got only half hard
Then I smelled her feet and became rock hard instantly and jacked myself off.
Again I was super disgusted and emberassed afterward and regretted it, ghosted her after that.
Foot fetish became the porn I watched the most and if that was boring I watched transgendered person stuff to get off.
With 17 and 10 days of nofap I went clubbing and cuddled, made out with a girl I knew for 6 years, I felt really attracted and had like 10+ boners in some hours but unfortunaly covid came and I lost my 30 day streak.
With late 17 I texted with a 14 year old girl and met up and after being together for 1 month I fucked her but could only get hard with feet.
I felt really attracted to her when texting but not so much in real life and the age gap was to big for me
After school I went to the army and was stationed far away from home.
Out of sexual frustration I went to a hooker and fucked her but again could only get an erection and bang her when I licked her feet before.
Rn I am 10 days porn free but I think I'll relapse soon again because I am bored rn and only have this streak/ or a streak in general when I'm active(doing something with friends, family or clubbing)
I really struggled with depression and suicidal thougths being 15-18 but I'm happier now although life still isn't great.
I'm thinking a lot about the girl I was clubbing with at 17 but I think it's the desire to get a pretty and lovely girlfriend and I don't know if that is cause of inner will or society.
If anyone read that long text:
do you'll think that I'm gay, straigth bi and are my fetishes porn induced or not?