First post

Hi everyone. This is my first post on this website. I'm 25 year old celibate not-by-choice (sounds a lot better), although I consider myself to be a normal guy. I also have social anxiety and depression, all of which I am trying like hell to resolve, unlike in past years. It's 3 am, I can't sleep, and I could masturbate but I'm choosing to do something positive and post here (hopefully this community is positive too). A few months ago I was having success not masturbating but I gave in eventually. I'm restarting though because I'm kind of in a corner at this point in my life. I see the futility of masturbation, and I have come to loathe porn. I can say this freely here I think but I desperately want a girlfriend, and always have. Sex is obviously on my mind, but I view having a girlfriend as much deeper than that. My social anxiety absolutely blocks me from getting one, so all of these things together have lead me to NoFap and its supposed benefits. In the past I hid myself away due to my social anxiety and tried to use online means to meet girls, but I now realize not only how pointless that is, but how few places there really are for that. So as of now I'm staying strong, re-initiating NoFap, working on myself and trying to be more social by any means necessary