Fetishes

Hello everyone. Well I had been struggling with porn addiction for the last 7-8 years and had developed ED. Am 31 at the moment.

Spoiler: trigger

Gradually as my porn had escalated, I was drawn more into femdom porn, and cuckold became an addiction. I chatted on these websites all the time and built a lot of connections, these sites were more addictive to me than real porn, but well i was always a submissive.

I started NoFap early this year (no self masturbation or porn), and did a 120 days streak. I have a gf so gradually I was able to have good sex with her (ED gradually reduced) but like many others I relapsed a couple of times after these 120 days.
At the moment I am again on a 60 day streak.

Spoiler: trigger

Well I no longer feel submissive or interested in the femdom stuff, rather I feel exactly the opposite. The ED has subsided a lot. The problem is most of the time i need to play that as a bull with a cuckold couple to get an erection, and it becomes very tedious, Sometimes I lose erections if i couldn't think of something new. Even when am in the middle of a sex act with my gf I need to think of something like this to get a stronger erection, which hampers my satisfaction. And the most important part is that i want to go to those chat sites and chat with those women, I literally have a huge problem of controlling that.

Any suggestions will be welcome on how I can deal with this problem.

 

Well usually I don't count, I usually find myself looking at the calendar when my urges get out of control. but yeah I have a great urge to masturbate and I probably prefer it over sex. And yeah those chats are kinda in my mind all day and that urges me masturbate. If nothing I just want to go and chat.

 

I think yo

U are right, am indeed very dominant in real life as that was one of the reasons my gf say she was attracted to me.
The thing is that I can't get these dom thoughts out of my mind at all and I feel that am living a fantasy life in my mind.
The other problem is when I was into the submissive side I was shy and insecure and ashamed. I don't feel these now and my mind says that's good so you can go back to those chat sites and chat with the new identity as a dominant person. I somehow restrict myself from going back there