In many ways, my biggest fetish was looking for the next fetish (all legal) Spoiler: triggers I've seen the cycle described on here many times. I'm about the same. I start by just telling myself that I'm going to "have a quick release" and that "it's normal for a guy to m@sturb@t# three times a day. Then, I get my phone out and find, "just something to help me get off". It starts out with normal gay porn. But, after a while, I will "want to see that clip" I like or "wonder what is new on that clip site." I know I'm off to the races when I start looking for str8 p0rn. Some str8 guys wonder why they watch gay p0rn. As a gay guy, I know why I like certain str8 porn vids. It's because the brahs are hot af in those videos. Str8 c^ck0ld vids make me seriously randy. It's all acting, I know. But, it has two guys in it and one is being humiliated. p0rn still calls me, I'm just letting it go to voicemail. I don't want anything from the bat# h0le it's just a giant trap for me. Spoiler: trigger The g00n hole slide is still attractive to me and is the most difficult part of this time in recovery from p0rn. My biggest trigger is chat with other guys to explore their fetishes (all legal). I've removed Discord and Telegram. But, I didn't delete my accounts. To delete the accounts, I'd have to reinstall the programs and that would be a huge trigger. I've wasted huge amounts of time and energy in the g00n h0le and now I want to return to real life.
I can relate to the g00n hole 100% Sometimes I think albolene and SoundCloud b*te music are my only friends. It fuels my fetishes, but then I pull back and look at myself in the mirror. Sweaty and greasy and looking like a fool. The hours I just spent wasted. There is another way and nofap can help.
Can completely relate buddy. It’s the escalation that becomes the real problem in the long run. Same here: deleting the social apps was a big step in moving forward.
Escalation...a good word to remember. When I'm absent mindedly thinking about the g00n hole,and the lube, and the p*rn, it just piles one. Layer after layer. One thing leads to another and several hours have passed. And when I think about the escalation, I don't want it. SoundCloud app deleted and account closed. Gotta make forward progress.
