Feeling numb in life from porn addiction.

Hey there! I am a 28 year-old porn addict who has tried to get free from his addiction with very little success. I have withdrawn myself from friends and family and rarely even go out anymore unless I actually have too. I hate my job due to the stress it causes , but fear quitting due to the fact i would have to give up on a lo of things and have to start over from scratch. I have tried to give up porn by myself and failed and could really use a community of people to help me through this hard time in my life. I am so numb and tired all the time I do not feel anything anymore really.

I have read many books and listen to podcasts but can barely go a week before slipping back into the old porn viewing habits. I feel lost and miserable because i have let so many opportunities pass me by and watch the world go on as I sit idle in my bed with my phone in my hand watching porn, and giving porn all my dreams I had as a child.