All of my hopes are gone, 50 days without PMOing, and this just lost to 30 seconds. It was not even sperm, it was "precum", which does not make things better though. I cannot believe myself. It felt like a bad dream. I really wanted it to be just piss. But since I am in hard mode, even the edging would be a reset. I, again, cannot believe myself. Such a shame. I feel like I've thrown out everything from the window. I feel alone, sad, and without all the power and motivation to continue. But I will. Whatever the price may be. If you have something to say, I'd really apperciate it.