fapping absolutely wrecks me

The moment you begin to have shame it will continue to spin around in cycle. You’ll be bored, watch porn and may enjoy it in the moment, but then when it’s 3 AM and you haven’t sleep of course it will roll over to the next day. I decided to finally stop being a slave to my terrible habit and decided that it was enough. Your feelings are valid but remember that the shame does nothing to you. I recently told my girlfriend of 3 years my porn addiction and she forgave me. I told her about 4 hours ago and I cannot be more free. I know I don’t want share with all of my family but maybe even finding a friend here or through your real life will help. More people than you realize have this issue and the best escape is by finding a community and realizing that you deserve to live a better life than constantly watching porn and seeing your life slip away. I believe in you man!

 

You feel free and that is good....but remember, you just dumped all that on her. She may have forgiven you but you will still have consequences in the relationship that will have to be worked on. DON'T blame her and accuse her of not forgiving! These will be the natural consequences to your use.