I was reading a bit on 'Your brain on porn'. im on a Nofap period of about a week now (i dont like to count days, makes it look long) and i have two questions: when i Nofap, i like to fantasize about women i know, this is interesting because i had (?) and extreme impractical porn fetish and now my 'brain porn' is just having crazy awsome sex with normal women. Yet my concern is that even if it doesnt make me relapse it is unhealthy for me in some way, what do you guys think? The other thing is my porn stash. i have a huge ass fucking porn stash, and have very hard time just deleting it. honestly, i dont feel like i need to delete it at all, but im becoming ready for deleting it anyways. my concern here is that if i relapse at some point, i will have this extreme dophamine rush just to search all that i've deleted, does any of you have any experience with deleting porn stash? Please share thought, sorry for long post.
I've been there man, used to have a hard drive with a stash of porn that i wiped clean and then when i relapse gradually fill it with porn. Longest streak so far has been 5 weeks and what i've learned from my past attempts to reboot is that yeah i put that porn filter, yeah i deleted all my downloaded porn. BUT i did not put enough effort working on othet aspects of my life be it education, relationships, health and etc. I abstained from porn but i did nothing else to improve myself.Thus, i easily relapsed and the vicious cycle started again. This time in my reboot attempt, i keep write in my journal daily, keeping track of what i did, my feelings, thoughts and the minor short term goals i have. The hard drive i used for storing porn? I now use it for storing school resources, resources for addiction and my other personal administrative files. My advice is when the urges come, dont obsess on getting rid of it or increasingly get anxious. Do not fear it! Approach it like you're about to stand up for yourself! Muster up the courage and discipline to go do someting productive and just let the sexual urges and thought flow through as if you're not giving it any attention. I know its easier said than done but for me after countless attempts fix my addiction, acting on ur urges is the last thing you want to do. But on the flipside, dont go fall into resentment and self-loathing if you happen to relapse. Focus on how far you've managed to abstain and all the improvements that have come from it. Also, learn from the experience, know why you relapsed, what you can do about it. Dont for a second think you're a failure. Hope it helps!
thanks DaBauce. Well my concerns aren't to do with feelings, I know most guys experience shame and regret in the proccess, but not me, i understand simply what i want to achieve but sometimes questions arises and i have to consult and hear opinions and experience. Also i worry that attempting to delete the stash will result in a relapse. or that my brain will get 'addicted' to its own brain porn, which is basically normal sex with normal women.
