Hey guys, I am currently doing a nofap 2.0 challenge. I have previously completed a 90 reboot last year and then went on to fapping again like once every week or two weeks. The year where I did my first 90 day challenge was where I had to sort my life out with regards to university, I had to take a year out to do my exams again due to depression whilst living out for university and I had to find a job to support myself so I didn't have the same university lifestyle I did with the partying as well as the lockdown closing everything. Whilst doing nofap for the second time I realised some character changes of mine which is making me feel that I might get into trouble. When I used to fap a lot, I was easily picked on and I didn't have the balls to say anything back. My diet was trash and I had a hard time approaching women. Now that I have a good amount of testosterone in me I've noticed some things that I have been doing. Whenever someone says something negative to me or throw a sly comment, I have responded back assertively to the point where I feel that my words sting the other person with pure venom. In other words, I have been putting the other person in his place and end up cussing him down to the point where he has a hard time thinking of a comeback as I am quite witty and consider myself as a funny guy. I used to walk around with a slouched posture when I fapped and looked exhausted nearly all the time. Now whenever I walk, my head is always looking straight up, fists are clenched and biceps showing their definition, tensing my arms for no reason (not on purpose), my back is straight and I walk around with my chest puffed out a bit. Some of my friends tell me that I walk around as if I'm looking for a fight although I'm not that type of person. I've been taking longer strides when walking and I have been more super productive than I have in the past. I have bought a journal which I write down what I want to achieve each day (apply to graduate jobs after university, go for a run, go gym and eat healthy) and I'm always itching to go do the next thing. Only thing I want now is my ED to go away so I can feel a lot better about myself.
I did have a relapse over a week ago (something happened which made me want to relapse for temporary relief) but I’m on day 10. Don’t see myself doing another relapse but you never know. The overall alpha male traits and productivity is going strong given it’s my second time doing nofap
Cheers on that streak and character changes, @AI7 ! Hopefully it continues well for you The changes definitely stay with you, even when you've reset once or twice - the mentality is most important to keep.
Thank you for that my friend much appreciated! Yeah the changes should stay there for me, if anyone does say anything to me in real life that seems to mock me in any shape or form I would tend to lash back (not in a violent way) but just as a means to stand up for myself.