I'm new to this everybody. Well putting out a public post that is. Basically I have issues wanting to see prostitutes or escorts. But the thing is I am very choosy on who I see bc of bad experiences. I will text then or call them when I'm in a private place and try to feel them out if we click and seem to be on a mutual level and most of the time I lose my interest because they are just all about money. I try to find one who actually cares but it is so stupid bc thats what they do for money! I have had some amazing times but that is very very few. I usually feel worse bc I let myself down. To me it is a double bad. Bc you have woman trying to make money and guys going into it and we are both just doing wrong. I try to find a woman who enjoys meeting me and likes having sex with me and is passionate about it but I must be stupid looking on these escort sites. It's all how much time etc. Idk how much time I just want to have a good time. Is there a way I can rationalize this to make it ok? I just need to find a.girlfriend who will treat me right. I'm a very caring guy. Been one week clean. Usually at night I get these urges.