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Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by zpargo87, Dec 8, 2017.

  1. zpargo87

    zpargo87 Fapstronaut

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    Hi all,

    I grappled with porn addiction for about 8 years until I realised it was causing lots of problems for me. For about a year and 8 months I've been off porn sites in general which I'm pleased about. However, this addiction has now turned into an escort addiction. I would now surf escort websites and look through escort profiles and then go and see an escort. I have developed this addiction since I have moved to London. I am going at a rate of 2 escorts per month. I think this is better than masturbating to porn as I am having real sex however it is very addictive and what would be better is a real relationship as what I am looking for is companionship as well as sex.
    What porn has done for me is that it has made me attracted to extremely beautiful women and so everyday real women I don't get that buzz for.
    Due to childhood trauma I struggle with relationships with women and so porn / escorts have been a coping method for me in the absence of real relationships with women. I have gone some periods without PMO which has helped however.
    I was making good progress and then I was diagnosed with cancer. I now have to stay at home as I am recovering from the cancer. This means I have all the time in the world and my escort usage has continued. I feel I don't want to just masturbate by myself instead I have the urge of seeing an escort. Even the process of calling a stranger / escort to enquire about services is turning into a problem as i get a high from it. I need to stop the escort use but now because of the cancer as well I feel that no woman that I feel attracted to would be interested in a man who has/had cancer and this leads me to seeking escort services. I start today by blocking anything sexual on my laptop. Any one in the same boat / have any ideas to solve this problem? I think I'm going to have to fork out for a top quality therapist as I need to stop porn and seeing the escorts.
     
  2. FeelingFine

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    Download the most personal addiction. It might help along with nofap.
     
  3. Spoony

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    I feel your trouble as i too also have an affiliation with paying for sex. But i dont have an addiction per say where im compelled too visit. But usually if it is available i will visit.

    My situation is i travel with work most of the year. And working in countries where there are cultural differences and language barriers i often find it hard to get past this. I have a face for radio and a belly to keep an eskimos fire burning for a year so it doesnt fair well on first appearences. Escorts for me basically cut the bullshit. They want money and i want the feeling of being with a women.

    It is in my view better than masturbation but if its an addiction then its not percieved as a healthy one. A couple a month is not so bad in the scale but how you view women and interact with women is the deciding factor on your addiction.

    Im sorry to hear about the cancer and i truly hope that you pull through from it. Going through cancer regardless of addiction is better to have someone by your side.

    Take a break from Escorts focus on recovery and focus on meeting someone. See how you feel.

    All the best
    Spoony
     
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  4. zpargo87

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    I simply can't help it. I need sex twice a month as a minimum. I think abstinence of looking at sexual imagery be it on my phone or laptop will be a good start in addition to a meditation practice. The escorting has made me more proficient at the act of sex but to get sex without paying for it requires good social / seduction skills and this is what we won't be as experienced in.
    I think in your case it is perfectly fine to see escorts. In my case I could be developing my social / seduction skills with everyday women instead of paying for it. But hey I've tried this and I realise that women I'm attracted to are not attracted to me.
     
  5. ReZen8ster

    ReZen8ster Fapstronaut

    I can relate to you on this issue. On my many attempts to stop PMO I too started using escorts. Several times during my marriage, because of lack or sex at home, probably due to PMO Turning me into a boring husband. Now that I’m divorced I’ve turned into quite the hobbyist. Twice a month is about my timing as well. I have also begun to become obsessed with all the women on the Escort sites and the easy and guaranteed sex. This habit does make it heard to date and seduce normal women. I have since cancelled all my escort website accounts. I pledged to not have sex or PMO until it’s natural intimate encounter. Good
    Luck to you and it helpful to unwrap my sexual obsessions.

    Good luck on getting better. I would encourage you to retain your semen and keep as much energy as possible for your physical recovery.
     
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  6. That sounds like you need a proper reboot. Do you need sex twice a month, or are you conditioned to need it twice a month?

    Your thinking about this may be warped. First, as you say, porn has warped the type of woman you're interested in to basically an unrealistic subset of available women. Get over that, and you realise that 'good social skills' aren't as important as you think. There are lots of awkward girls out there. Maybe you want to find one of them - they likely are a better match for you personally anyway. As a socially awkward person myself, I know that it doesn't make us less interesting - it's just a little harder for us to engage initially. No difference between guys and girls in that regard.

    I guess my point is: harbouring dreams of being a guy who can meet a pretty girl in a bar and go home with her is likely unrealistic, as you note. But there's a whole different world of dating/sex/love out there.
     
  7. Flimsyfryingpan

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    I too struggle here. I've been on and off the scene for quite awhile now, but tonight I did find myself seeking. I made contact, but didn't go through with it tonight........
    No PMO is gonna be one of the hardest things I'll probably have to go though and I don't want to have to go back seeing escorts. I gave that up almost 2 years ago. Its a struggle and there is a bit of a war going on in my head. It will remain to be seen if I give in or I just white knuckle through everything.
     
  8. ReZen8ster

    ReZen8ster Fapstronaut

    The way see it. If I ever want to have a normal real relationship any time soon I need to give up all the porn and especially the escorts and do it the old fashioned way. Meet a girl, strike up a friendship/ conversation/ relationship, progress your interest, and move it to wards intimacy and sex. I still remember the first time as a teenager when you get the first bra off. An I’m like oh my god this is happening. I want that feeling again. I know many guys date and look closely up women. I’m just too guarded and doubtful. There is some work I need to do on my self. From what I have heard when a man retains his seed and manifests its power, women somehow can sense it and women will flirt and come on to you. I deleted all escort acounts profiles and my connected reviews. Rebooting all of myself.
     
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  9. Flimsyfryingpan

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    Yeah I know I have to stay away from it all also. I have taken steps to stay away today despite the text i got from her this morning asking if ill be seeing her. I promptly deleted the feed before I ended up giving in and spending money I shouldn't be spending for a sexual experience that isnt realistic in the real world. There was a reason I gave it all up to begin with and I need to stick to my guns as hard as it is.
    I keep hearing about this and its one of the things im striving for if I can actually put more than 2 weeks free of PMO (its the longest I've ever put together before discovering nofap) lots of work to do. This was a tough weekend all around for staying free of PMO
     
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  10. ReZen8ster

    ReZen8ster Fapstronaut

    Yes I’m about 2 weeks myself and the thought of calling a girl to come over definitely popped in my head. But I did not call or browse escort listings. Feeling better today and a little empowered.
     
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  11. ReZen8ster

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    Every month I would go over budget and be living in credit the last few days of the month. Many months because of the 400-600 spent of escorts over the month. Crazy
     
  12. zpargo87

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    It's probably the latter - unless I get rid of my laptop and phone I end up having sex twice a month. I really struggle to control my energy if it is easy to just look at an escort website.
     
  13. zpargo87

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    I'm so desperate to do this. Unless I get rid of my laptop and smart phone I will always end up viewing porn / seeing escort. I can't help it. I have got my friend to put a blocker on my laptop. Now I need to do the same on the phone and then see what happens.
     
  14. topjobm8two

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    Sorry to hear about your cancer. GL with your journey.
     
  15. zpargo87

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    That's quite alot to spend. I guess we all have different budgets. This month I've spent £240, that's £120 an hour with two different girls. The first experience was literally the best sex I've ever had. The second I got ripped off - it wasn't the girl I asked for and she left after 30 minutes - though she was hot at least.
     
  16. White ninja

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    I too had this problem w meeting women post divorce , No women would look twice at me or touch me, never went to escorts but Pmo'd so much it actuallly got boring . A friend got me into David Deangelo , Some of his early stuff was meh/weak but pick up Deep inner game and Man Transformations . Both life changing . Listen to one to 2 hrs a day which goes by fast, start applying it to your life , its about changing who you are to be a naturally more attractive person from the inside which will change your general vibe you give off . That combined w simply forcing yourself at first to make small talk w attractive girls if opportunities arise and trust me you'll get there . It will take you about 3-6 months to get through both sets so don't even bother rushing it . My problem is I have an addictive personality by nature its the way I was wired from childhood imprints and genetics, probably not announcing anything there that most people here I'm sure all know ( how addiction works ) and I became too consumed by always upping my dating life and took it too far , now I think I might have sex addiction from hooking up w so many women :(
     
  17. chesterkeen

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    great decision, bro...believe me, addiction to escorts, paying for sex and receiving easy sex is something even more horrible than addiction to porn...aside from that, having sex with escorts with no feeling is not even comparable to do it with someone you are intimate with
     
  18. The Real JokeErr

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    Escorts and Porn are more or less the same. Escorts will get you "convenient" sex. No socializing or approaching women and you get a dopamine high. That is exactly what Porn does too. So we are missing the big picture here. I feel you guys should reset your counters, looking at escort ads is as bad as watching porn. Just be strong and shrug off this habit, Remember we are all in the same boat and here to help each other
     

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