Dying to live instead of living to die

Hey everybody, my name is Aradur, and I am a man in his late twenties trying to quit porn.
My problem started quite early, which seems to be the case with most of the people on this blog. When I was eleven, someone in my highschool class thought it'd be hilarious to sign my school email up to a long list of porn sites. Every day I'd receive at least ten emails containing pornographic material, until finally the school had to change my email to stop them flooding in. But sadly that was just enough to get me hooked.
This is a problem I've had to contend with for longer than I care to remember, but finally I'm beginning to realise that I don't have to accept porn as part of my life. It's unhealthy for me, in terms of what I'm thinking about, and what I could be exposing others to in looking at it on my home PC. This thing has been enough of a blight on my own life, so it'd just be crippling to think I'd exposed someone else to something that does nothing but hurt me.
I want to quit, not only for the sake of my own welfare, but for my family as well, so I can re-build the trust and relationships that have already begun to erode from all the times I've promised I'd quit and then end up doing something stupid for the sake of quick relief. I also want to establish new friendships and build on the ones I already enjoy. I'm tired of standing in my own way and being afraid of change. I'm sorry - as you can probably sense, I hold a lot of frustration against this problem.
Anyway, I could just really do with some hope, and for a start I'm grateful that this isn't a problem I face alone. I really hope to find a permanent solution to this problem, and not end up feeling anxious or depressed as I try to move forward in life.
So, that's where I currently stand. I've managed to stay off for a week now, and still going strong, but instead of listening to those fears that say I don't need help, I'd just like to instead admit that I'm only human, and that I WILL need help to find an end to this.
I look to starting this journey, and to freeing my life of this blight once and for all.
Peace and Respect,

Aradur

 

Thanks Septimus! Much appreciated. Another day down, a few more to go!