Don't give up

I'm starting up again, currently on day 1. But today has felt significantly different from the previous days. I have been reflecting upon my past and have been thinking about how this addiction has impacted my life. This is a terrible addiction to have. But I understand now how important it is to simply reflect upon life, and look to the past; not as a means of judgement, but as a guide for improvement. I've looked at my mistakes and I realize how pivotal some of them were. I might not be at the place I want to be, but the epiphany i've had (Although it's difficult to explain) has been the kind of thought i've always strived for. I'm not sure this is because i've started nofap, but making this challenge a habit will be extremely beneficial. I'm going to get up tomorrow and live the day with everything I have. I'm not just going to sit around and do nothing, hoping that I don't relapse. No. Fuck that! I'm fucking sick of that shit. I'm not going to hold myself back because I have this addiction. I'm not going to pity myself. None of you should. You're all fucking great, don't let this shit break your spirits. I'm going to push myself with everything I have. And if I fall, I'm going to spring the fuck back up, brush myself off, and continue grinding. This is going to become a way of life. This is the mentality I'm striving for. Everything in my life can have so much meaning, the difficult part is finding that, but damn when you look for meaning in even the simplest of things.. everything changes. I'm glad i've gotten to this point and I'm more motivated than ever to move forward in life.