Don’t normally celebrate Valentine’s Day, but today I have something to celebrate

"you need to expand your horizons/cast a wide net, and have an interesting, vibrant personality, while at the same time being immersed in your purpose."
What you wrote here is big! I noticed this at work today. The more I work towards my aim of rewiring my psyche from years of habits, unawareness of my self, self-ridicule, and the like, the more I appear to influence people more. It starts with my self. You really do attract what you internalize...

 

I really hope this will be my case. I did 26 days no PMO, but I relapsed. Nevertheless I feel way more confident and all my friendships are more sincere. I hope I'll make more meaningful connections this semester.

 

My teacher (Beelzebub) in The Tales sheds light on the maleficent disease known as Moordoorten (Onanism, i.e. masturbation to climax). Essentially, it destroys our ability to experience remorse of conscience and turns us into psychopaths. From All and Everything: “And as regards the remaining terrestrial three-brained beings, who by the way in general represent in themselves the majority, then they, becoming usually transformed at the corresponding age—owing to many causes, but chiefly because already from the earliest years of their existence it became proper to them to occupy themselves with what is called ‘Moordoorten’—into what are called ‘psychopaths,’ accept blindly, literally, and word for word, entirely without any being-logical mentation, all these ‘fantastic absurdities’ which reached them; and a kind of special peculiar ‘faith’ in all this religious teaching becomes automatically formed in them as if it represented in itself the totality of all the ‘truths’ connected with and related to just this Sacred Individual Jesus Christ who was indeed intentionally actualized among them from Above."

 

"At the beginning of the explanation about the disease Moordoorten it was said, among other things, that the human organism has been brought by Great Nature to such perfection that each and every organ has been provided with a means of defense against every external contingency; and hence that if any organ should function incorrectly in people, it must always be the people themselves who are to blame owing to their own established conditions of everyday life."

 

Seems like dating app made you relapse brother