don´t fool yourself

hi guys

i met this comunity about 2 months ago and after starting a 90 days reboot challenge, i quit around day 6 or 7. i fall into the temptation of doing a controlled aproach like "i can handle this, i can control this thing, just fap once in a while".
well 2 months later, i found out: YOU CAN´T. your fucking brain will use ANY excuse in the book to keep you on masturbation. i was counting the days: "weeeell just on weekends... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeell just every 2 days.... and so on ), i was counting the times, controlling like this, controlling like that, but no, it´s impossible.
i see now that once you have the addiction trying to controlled ourself it´s like padling against the tide. sooner or later your going down the river.

so really you guys have all the sense of saying that you must go all zero. and it´s true. because if you let a little window open, a tiny hope of seeing porn on any day, you will sucumbe to the addiction. your mind will win you over, the urges will win you over. and you´ll be back at square one.

so i´m sick and tired of being tired, of being pity for myself, of wasting my time. yeah porn is good but it´s not worth it. it´s just not worth you´re ruining your life over it.

so i´m starting the 90 day challenge from this day.
i wrote this so if anyone ever have the thought that "i can control it", believe me: it´s a trap, you can´t. you have to erase it from existence. be totally clean, totally free from porn. don´t feed any kind of hope on your mind because sooner or later you´ll be pulled back.

good luck everyone. i´m with you. let´s do this thing.