I just got home from a party and was hanging around the kids more than the adults. I felt anxious around the grown ups or people my age. I felt like someone younger than the rest even though I think they all see me as their equal in terms of maturity. I left early and came home where I'm always alone and I'm just eating food and randomly browsing through youtube at old anime clips (My usual routine when I come home). I felt like less of a man because I'm not socially confident and out there. Because I stay home and don't do much of anything. I am introverted so I thought it was just me being me. But there's a difference between being shy and introverted. I'm thinking of going to the gym to be more of a social environment instead of being scared all the time. I'd rather be introverted than shy (Where I prefer to be alone than being scared to be alone and being able to socialize fine when I need to). So what do you guys think? I'm just spilling my mind right now with this thread.