Does anyone use a a journal? has it helped?

I have created a journal on my computer (its the easiest method I have come accross and I can keep it under lock and key alot better that way no prying eyes can see my demented thoughts that I discuss with myself)

This is to be a coping mechanism for me, my taste in porn has gotten very demented - to the point of grotesque and I am losing interest in it and looking for new genres and who knows where that could lead (currently trying to get off of shock porn, violent, and just flat out bizarre porn - vanilla porn has just lost all desire to me). I can't take it anymore everytime I orgasm to the smut I just hate myself.

I think this method might help so I can be honest with myself during a "panic" time where I can talk myself out of the idea of spending time with my addiction.

This is the last method I can think of that could possibly work.

I feel like I am Two-Faced where I have one persona everyone sees, and when I am alone and close the door in my apartment my evil demented side just sets itself a blaze.