Do You Feel "Ugly" After A Relapse?

I feel ugly after it. And it brings me pimples. Maybe body is telling me something about how I'm to much drained and acitivate hormons to many times for no reasons.

 

yep, I definitely relate. I think some of it (like the dead eyes) has to do with staring directly into a bright little screen in the dark for long periods of time. and when you're in active addiction, if you're like me, you stay inside as much as possible and don't get enough sunlight or natural exercise.

there's definitely also some immediate biological responses .. I always feel super tired and physically and mentally drained after a pmo session. I think it uses a lot of mental energy and creates/uses hormones. (I'm not exactly sure how that cycle works). but it definitely causes hormone instability which I think leads to acne. I'm almost 30 and I still get acne on my face.

every time we come, we lose important minerals like zinc. I'm sure that can't be good for our health.

 

also, I've experienced a phenomenon and I'm wondering if anyone else has noticed this too

when I'm in the middle of an edging/pmo session, I feel a weird sensation on my back, like I can feel the sweat pushing through my pores. yes I know that any exercise creates sweat, but I feel like it's a specific feeling related to pmo'ing. I'm wondering if that is possibly part of the hormone production/releasing process

 

Can confirm pretty much everything said but I think there is a missing psychological aspect to it as well not mentioned. The context of these minor changes, the guilt and shame of a lust filled lifestyle add a certain subconscious feeling. I don't want to be a Fapper and when I look in the mirror the fatter rounder face that pigged out on porn is the person I don't want to be. I don't recognize the man in the mirror when I am dragged away by lust.