I feel like all relapses are put in to the same category. Basically if you have relapsed you have relapsed. But I feel like one relapse could be completely different to another relapse in terms of damage. For instance relapsing for 5 minutes to say something like one safe search google image of a female is completely different to relapsing to multiple porn videos for an hour. It's basically like an alcoholic relapsing drinking 2 beers vs an alcoholic relapsing and drinking a full bottle of vodka. Yes the alcoholic has relapsed on both of them, but the damage is completely different. But I feel like everything is put in to the same category. I also feel like when I have relapsed it somewhat puts me in to the mindset oh well I have relapsed on this image for 5 minutes, might as well masturbate to porn videos now, as I have already relapsed. This isn't true. So I created my own type of calendar to track my streaks. The numbers are how many days I have not PMOed at all, haven't masturbated to anything at all. The green cross would be if I relapse to something like a safe search google image for a few minutes. The yellow cross would be if the relapse is slightly worse, maybe masturbating flicking about social media images for 20 minutes. Then the red cross would be the worst relapse, something like multiple tabs open relapsing to porn videos and many different things. I have to decide for my self how bad the relapse is, and then put the relapse in what category I think. But I feel like this is a better way for me to track my streaks. I am still trying to stop everything. But I don't want to put masturbating to a safe search google image for 5 minutes in to the same category as masturbating to multiple porn videos for an hour. Also as you can see I haven't had a good week this week, as I fell in to some of the worst relapses, PMO binges.
