Did I Relapse?

Your tracker implies you're attempting to abstain from porn, so this is really more of a question you can answer.

From my perspective, no, you didn't relapse. However, are you sure you were just looking for information or is that something your addicted mind is telling you to give you an excuse to look at it?

I don't think you relapsed, I think you were briefly triggered, but I'd be very wary on looking for any information at all. There's really only one thing you need to know about porn.

Looking at it is a waste of time.

 

No you did not relapse. Besides, you came across the image inadvertently which happens a lot when we browse the net. Triggering images are lurking everywhere. We just need to find a way to become emotionally distant from triggers. That is easier said than done. If we do not purposely look for the images/videos then it cannot be a relapse.

Also PMO is much more of a complex ritual than we think. It involves a lot of micro and macro activities, thoughts and emotions that are together linked like a chain. In my perspective, completing the ritual means following through until orgasm. Since, you did not follow through and broke the ritual at the point of being triggered, you should consider that a major accomplishment.

 

I was in the exact same situation earlier and I reset my counter and counted it as a relapse. I felt the same chemical rush as I did before and felt anxious and guilty within myself knowing what I had just done. I only watched it for 2 seconds yet still feel as if I broke the rule of no pornography.

 

Stumbling onto something on accident isn't a relapse unless you fap to it. If we counted it as a relapse no one would make it to 90 days.

 

I started to masturbate slowly to pictures before that and was in the process of masturbating when watching the video. I switched it off straight away but still felt the rush of watching it.

 

Maybe for him, that's not the point? I can see the mindset behind completely demonizing everything porn and masturbation related. Perhaps the point for those like him isn't to make it 90 days. It's just about abstaining.