detox

i believe i am failing badly at my detox. dopamine detox. I so much so even think of the detox and my brain gets scared of what might the withdrawal symptoms might be...
I have been watching a lot of web-series and Youtube vids recently.

more so, in the last 1 week or so when i had first thought about going into a dopamine detox. What happened was i ended up screwing it even more. I have been doing detrimental things to myself since a while now and I know how harmful it can be. watching porn, watching web-series endlessly searching for that dopamine high and increasing my dumbness tbh. It doesn't add to anything, the webseries and endless youtube videos all it does it make one feel as if we're okay and get an escape from the actual problems we have at hand.

i have an upcoming exam and had been taking a few mock tests recently and i realised that i haven't been performing well in them. The point is- I got slack and lazy somewhere, granting myself the luxury to watch a movie or webseries rather than just being after the study. It is all because of my neurological pathway combination and conditioning. I need to undo it.