I feel ya, I'm on the same boat, but instead of trying to play games and waste your time. Do something, learn how to draw, learn physics, chemistry, photoshop, coding and exercise. Actually, you can do everything, but that's our problem today. We don't know how to use our time. You can learn a new thing everyday. You should at least spend 1 hour doing something good.
truthfully my dream is to become a gaming youtuber. and my hobby is gaming. i dont have a career yet. yeah im a loser yeah i play games. so what?
And there's nothing wrong with that? But have you got the stuff in place to chase your dream? Use the time wisely if you wanna stream or start YouTube get all the equipment you need a channel and just start uploading then you'll know if it's for you or not but you need a back up plan. What if it doesn't work out? What if it doesn't work out? Do it as a hobby now stream record or whatever you wanna do and if it becomes more it's a bonus
i dont have the equipment yet. i may not have for some time. but i believe i will get a job first. to stabilise myself. and then i will start buying the equipment piece by piece and then build my dream. so even if it fails i still have a job. but yeah i agree, a back up plan is good
Suffering is only way to know possible way to come out of depression. If you use this rule "I want to see what happens if I won't give up". You will know your all answer.
See there's an ambition and a dream, even if you don't make it as a big time you tuber you can still do it for fun so the equipment won't go to waste anyway, but why not try streaming on YouTube or twitch? You can interact with your viewer base and at first you'll only have a few people watch and it will build from there, this way you can practice talking to people and social interactions and the more viewers you get and the more you talk to people it will become easier, for example I'm a complete stranger and your responding to me? It may not be a face to face response but you still have to respond
i can mastu- oh i cant aww i suck at drawing. i tried, it pisses me off i have no patience for art. physics? science stuff difficult af. chemistry? i like explosions or just working with dangerous stuff. photoshop? lmao im gonna look shredded :3 coding? tried it hated it moved on. exercise. tried it for like 2 weeks and tried keeping it in my routine. didnt work and its just physically draining to your body
yeah because its online. i dont have to meet you or see you so i dont have to worry. thats the beauty of technology. this is probably why i have no reason to socialise. why do what tech can do for me?
Because even though you can use tech and things, there's still situations in life where you need to verbally talk to someone, it's part of life, and to cute your depression you need to expose yourself but only you can do that, having a mentality where you believe tech can do everything for you is what's making you worse rather than better
I understand that, that's why I thought about that. Go on your own, take the routes that are not frequented and just watch outside, the birds, river whatever.