Delayed shame

do you ever have days when you have given in to porn and there is a state of complete detachment, i think its some sort of high and what goes up must come down except thats when the shame kicks in.

im beginning to realise i can go days before coming down from that one fap and then the shame starts kicks its really bizzare

on the downside i havent gone a single week in past 2-3 years without watching porn

im pretty sure im beginning to cause some damage to my dick at this stage because i cant stop porn .

my porn addiction is actually changing the size and function

i used to be 7" and 5 when soft. but i literally can never maintain the size because of my porn addiction

i watch far too much and causes me to be sore and tender and causes my genitals to constrict and reduced blood flow my dick can shrink because of it to about 3 inches within 2-3 days the pain or discomfort goes away my testosterone rises and size and function begins to return to normal but before long im watching porn again

it's actually very annoying that im this compulsive with porn i dont want to hit 40-50 and my genitals are constantly battered from jerking off, and being shorter too . like jerking off has mangled me somehow i dont know how exactly but it definitely maybe its just be if refractory period and if i could stop watching porn