Day number 201

Its been an amazing journey thus far, and I cant believe its nearly 7 months. At first it seemed impossible, and some days were (and are) hell - but I'm thankful.
So a few things I noticed and learned:
- Not giving in to the urges is a daily battle.
- The intimacy between my wife and I deepened and grew more intense.
- I'm striving to be better in different areas of my life

If you're just starting, or having a tough time, just keep on going. A lot of the time something as simple as 30min of waiting and focusing your attention on something else when urges flair up can make a difference. And take it one moment at a time, its not easy but its worth it.

 

Yes, quite a lot actually.
The main one was irritability. I had moments where I walked around like a bear with a sore tooth. Those were and are times where I would usually go somewhere private for some stress relief. Suddenly I had to find constructive ways to deal with these feelings.

The other huge one was withe intimacy with my wife. I had to get my head and heart focused solely on her. The problem with porn in a marriage is that you constantly compare the things that you see in private with everything that's happening to you. In the process you start to miss the beauty of the reality you are in. I had to rethink how to be an honorable husband and father.

On the practical side of things I've started to avoid certain places and situations when i feel a weakness. So beach days are limited at times and we fast forward the movies we watch regularly.

But all the withdrawals are worth it.

 

Dying every day is a very good description.
But the dying part should be the part that's obsessed with everything that's wrong.

In a way its actually a good thing.