Day 49. Quit weed, pmo and dealing with stress/anxiety. Advise greatly appricietead. ED.

As tittle states.

I did quit pmo and weed 49days ago. When I moved in with my girlfriend. Just wanted to be functional in everyway. Witch I wasnt and still aint. It´s better in some ways, in others almost worse. Alot of ups and downs.

Is it going to get better? I´m getting to the point where I feel like giving up. I´m not going back to either porn or weed but man will it ever get good again? Right now the problem is ED. I want to give sex and love to my girlfriend but im not capable and its killing me. She´s wearing those under pants I love, look sexy and ready to roll and the libido just isnt there. I can talk to her and it´s not like she is putting pressure like that. I do that good enough by my own. It has gone up and down but last 10days have been so bad. My self confidence is going quiet low..

I had severe anxiety for a couple of weeks witch have now gone down alot, its manageable at the moment. Alot of unwanted emotions and thoughts, its also alot better now. Not gone but better and diffrent manners. It tends to be around what im feeling unsecure/anxious at the moment. Alot of it is from more or less being a daily weed smoker for 6-8years, "separating" from my best friend, switching from a really really stressfull job so its not "only" that I sustain from pmo & weed.

After 3-4weeks clean I was visiting my father in another town and didnt see my girlfriend for a couple of days, when I came back i was quiet horny and it worked good. I thought man o man this is great, i´m cured and its only gonna get better from this point. I was wrong. It has worked sometimes during this time aswell, its not completly dead aaall the time but last week have been nothing. It kills me Feel like im going in and out of a sexual flatline or something. It´s strange.

Any advise??

/ Mystery

 

That´s great man! Good job!

Thanks for your reply, gave me some courage! Yeah I know, same here. So many ups and downs and uncertainties. We where together before I quit and shes a really good girl! She gives great support The thing is I put so much pressure on my self constantly thinking on if I got a boner or not, wanting to have one.

Haha, well I understand, in some ways and some days I feel the same. First weeks I was very very conflicted. Now not so much. I just want to function so badly I hinder myself. Such a drag... I know who I was and can be beeing clean and functional its just so hard to get there this time. I hope I will!

Anyone got tips regarding performance anxiety?

It´s almost like I dont even want to try, afraid of failing.. But then again I want it so bad it´s very hard to resist witch makes me feel worse. If I fail I feel miserable.. judging how it went and so.. Sometimes it has worked just fine and then it´s great. Should I even try for the time being?