Day 2

I think I might die. I mean don't get me wrong this is the goal and everything but actually being on the path feels like burning embers . I see sex sex sex on talk show host commercials every fucking where. This is uncomfortable for me the works are of a different path I'm sure your all familiar, it's just I've been asleep so long friends, also a major fork in my heart is my virginity being taken before all pure and stuff this was cake but now 21 and having the taste of sex I feel like I'll burst into flames. Well that's all for now I'm sure this makes zero sense but I just wanted to come here to write if anything even if I fall at least I was treating this site as the mountain ledge and your witnesses to my hands firmly grasp , bleeding , knuckles white, gripping on for dear life before I fall into the pit of relapse despair.