After 155 days I now see women completely differently than when I was addicted to porn. This was something that surprised me, and I now see women, both young and old, as fellow vulnerable human beings, just like you and I, and with all the same problems, anxieties, hopes and fears. One of the most vile things that porn does to our brains is to distill women down to simple sex objects, sometimes associated with cruel treatment and humiliating circumstances, further reducing their humanity. This is simply not true, and I am grateful for this revelation which has been yet another effect of being free of pornography addiction. Another positive which has come from freedom from porn has been elimination of my social anxiety, and now I have spoken to many women, both young and old, in many different environments. In all these conversations, the women were all treated as fellow human beings deserving of respect. I have also heard many sad stories of abuse and loss from some of these women, and has made me personally ashamed of my past thoughts and actions in porn, which have emulated some of these humiliations in video. So although I cannot change my past porn viewing, speaking with many women has hardened my resolve to never engage again with this vile medium of exploitation of women. So brothers and sisters, remember, it is not all about us, the people we see in porn videos are in many cases exploited, but even if they are willingly engaging in these acts, it is turning us into narrow minded charicatures of a person with a normal sexual attitude. We are wired to be sexual beings, so do not be ashamed of your desires, but the way we react to those desires is certainly our choice. Remember that before video porn became so common, people lived, and had the same feelings as we do these days about sex and women. The difference is that these days we can become easily addicted to an un-natural sexual expression in the form of porn. But that addiction is something we can also be cured from, so never despair, you will succeed in the end. Cheers for now.
So in my nofap journey I installed snapchat.. cause I got control over orgasm and masturbation and porn is a little obsolete. So I got into a sex talk with a girl and she was talking about her ex watching porn then trying to have sex with her but his thing was dying inside her. He wanted to do a lot of kinky stuff from porn but she didn't wanted, also he wasn't kissing her and stuff. And I am like jobless because my life is screwed from multiple reasons, not just porn. I think if I had a gf, I would probably forget porn real fast, cause my biggest streaks were when I was in love. But damn that guy was really broken... he was taking pills to stay hard but couldn't even stay like that so he wanted her to change her nose, get more skinny and stuff, what a narcissistic ahole
