Day 15 in search of a new life

Hi All,

I am a married man, 30 years of age. I have been into P almost all of my adult life, ever since I found high speed internet. I was doing it atleast once everyday for the last 10 years of my life. I got married a couple of years ago and didn't realize what was waiting for me. My beautiful, loving wife didn't know it. I wasn't able to understand why I do not find her attractive in bed or why I was never satisfied after sex. I always had to go to P to have a final round that would make me happy. Slowly I realized that watching P was not for pleasure anymore. It was something I just had to do. I would find excuses to get away from my wife and PM. My wife always felt that she was the only one in our relationship who was passionate. I seemed distant and to me it felt like sex with my wife was just a way to O and be done with it.

Recently, I started having ED problems. I tried and failed a few times and got really worried. I wanted to see a doctor, but fortunately googled my symptoms to see that this is a common problem, fueled by porn. I decide to quit instantly. This is day 15 of my abstinence from PMO. I have discussed this issue with my wife and she is very supportive. We havent even tried having sex for the last 15 days(although we do kiss and she tends to get a little 'handsy'! Any advices if this is healthy?

I hope I can reach a phase where I will be able to enjoy sex with my wife and erase P from my life forever!

 

Hello All,

19 days now! I had my first explicit dream and woke up with a 7/10 morning wood. I think this is a sign of progress?? Anyone?

 

Hello All,

Today is day 30 of my PM abstinence and boy do I have good news! In the last few days I had started having solid erections, but decided to postpone 'the test' as much as possible. Today I was fooling around with my wife and just could not resist. I was very hard for 5-6 minutes at first and then it flopped again. This was all before we even in the act. I was disappointed but was still hopeful because of the 5 minute stay. However, me and my wife started making out again and voila it was up again! I felt this was atleast a 8/10 erection and went for it. I was easily able to penetrate and was loving this. I must say that I kind of PE'd but that is fine I guess. I remember when I first started having sex, I would not last more than a couple of minutes which improved over time.

I hope that the timings will improve. Does anyone have any suggestions or ideas how to make sure I last longer and longer?

I would like to add that I have had urges to P on and off but was always able to distract myself by work, music, sports etc I highly recommend setting a career or some sort of goal to distract yourself. Right now I am focusing on my tennis and I have noticed that more practice has improved my game(both in and out of the bedroom lol).

 

Thanks buddy. I just completed 30 days without PMO and it really helped. Now I want to have sex now and I'm ready physically as well. I really never want to fall in the P trap again.