So it's day 15 and right now I'm just depressed and angry, been flatlining for a week now... when I walk outside I just want to avoid people... I don't want to look anyone is the eye... Is this a part of the flatline? Cause it really fucking sucks. I'm sorry for the shitty post, I guess it reflects how I feel right now... shitty.
Hey man, first of all I want to say congrats for 15 days. From your post it sounds like you were doing okay before so I'm going to assume this isn't a long term depression kind of thing. But to the point, it's okay and normal to feel shitty man. It could be a flatline or you could just be having a bad day. Do some things that make you happy, exercise a little, get a good nights rest. Just remember not to resist this feeling, but to let it pass.
What is your recovery goal at this time - 90 day hardmode? If it is, why should flatline matter - unless I'm missing something. Do you really need an excited libido right now, morning wood, erections, wet dreams, etc., making recovery more difficult? I realize your ultimate goal may be to cure PIED, perhaps. But why not just go with the flow for the 90 days, trusting that recovery is occurring. Hey, 15 days is great, man! Evaluate things after the 90 mark (presuming here that's your program). Does that make sense? For worry and stress, especially as unnecessary at this point in recovery, will not help the very problem you're actually trying to cure - it may even be a partial contributor to the ED issue. Again, I hope I'm not missing something.
Eating healthy and sleeping plenty helps with moods. My libido reinstates with the above and gym and when I drink ribena But like joein said having libido will make things difficult. Let time heal you... libido is very easily reinstated. However reinstating it now when your mind is not rewired will make u relapse.
Yeah I get what you guys are saying, trust me. And thanks for the support, yeah 15 days is my best yet, my next best is 11 days when I tried two years ago. I want to give this time, it's just so frustrating that it seems to be happening at a time when I'm starting a new job and I would want my mood to be at a good level so I can make a good impression on the co-workers and people in charge. I haven't even been given the job formally yet, I think they want to test me out, I'm going there on my first 'test-day' tomorrow. I applied for this job before the flatline struck, when I was at the top of the world, lol. So yeah that's why I'm so frustrated. Haha, but you're right... there no way of forcing it.
Easy. Your focus in your mind is your new job. Your pmo issue has nothing to do with it. Think you have a new job and what doors it will open To be honest i prefer the flat line. However gyming and healthy eating reinstates it because am trying to bulk up. Focus your mind on work. You will have lots to learn at work ie how systems work, processes, policies and names of colleagues to remember. All these alone should preoccupy your mind until Friday at least. ....
