Day 13th of quitting porn

I need help!

I am so happy by just not watching porn and my heart doesn't want it with.

With previous quitting journey

My heart always want but my brain doesn't.

I have set no restriction over masturbation but now I think I should. I not overdoing just natural.

Out 13 days straight no masturbation fof 5 days.

Not forcing anything.

I am afraid I might relapse. I am not relapsing but I am afraid I might.

Do you get what I trying to say.

Honestly, today I fantasised my crush a lot because she smiled and kept looking at me. I might ask her out in a week maybe. She is pharmacist and I am to pharmacy every other day. She knows I like here and think she likes me back also. (I am not a teenager, 26 years breadwinner)

Okay now I need help. Just don't want to relapse or anything.

Just don't want pornshit in my life

Already finished three books
Breaking the cycle, your brain on porn, porn myth


They helped a lot.

Now help to overcome my fear of relapse and is it okay to masturbate when it feels natural?

Trying to quit porn since 2april 2020

Had good and bad both. Max abstain from porn 2 month

But heart wanted it all the time. Most cleanest 13 days. Heart aint no want that shit anymore.

Peace