Day 1.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by uiop2, Jun 13, 2019.

  1. uiop2

    uiop2 Fapstronaut

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    Just started over exactly 40 mins ago.
    Abstaining from masturbation, porn and sex as well (i'm not in a relationship).
    They turn me into a person i'm not, i wanna be able to think with my own brain clearly without all of these pulsions all the time, the more you do it the more you want it.
    I wish i never knew porn.
    I will update as time goes on.
     
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  2. uiop2

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    Btw i'm not sure if gradually quitting it or going cold turkey like the previous times... It caused me a lot of stress and pressure the first days since i also suffer from ocd and have a lot of anxiety, of course it got better with time but what about relapsing after a week, then after 2 weeks and so on...?
     
  3. Anime Lover 42

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    Hi
    I wish you good luck. :) You can do it
     
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  4. uiop2

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    Thank you, i wish you the same!
     
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  5. uiop2

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    Unfortunately relapsed today... well it happens, i will restart the counter. But everytime i relapse i'm more convinced about my decision of quitting it.
     
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  6. uiop2

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    Had to go back to the forum. Feeling really down right now and apathetic... and i don't even have the strenght to relapse, i don't want it, i don't want that shit anymore in my life which fucked up my brain... and i found out that i'm addicted to the internet in general but i'm sure it wouldn't happen if i didn't start masturbating on that shit called porn. Don't know what to do, i will just wait until tomorrow and see if it changes or not but i won't relapse i don't have the strenght for it...
     
  7. uiop2

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    I'm done with it, it makes me become paranoid about everything since i have intrusive thoughts also... life's a nightmare like that, it happened sometimes that i masturbated like 3/4 times in a row on porn so i cannot even imagine how long it will take to go back to normal. Addictions are hell, basing your life on when your next dopamine rush will be is pathetic. Or watching another man fucking a girl and jerking off on that is pathetic also.
     
  8. uiop2

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    Got this. Raised my mood a little bit which is still low. I love the nature.
     

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  9. uiop2

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    5. The Great Salt Desert (90-365? Days)
    Relapses in this stage are practically harmless. Your achievements of the last 4 months won't suddenly disappear. It is vital to not trick yourself into relapsing over and over though. As if that happens, you may fall back into your old behavior.
     
  10. uiop2

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    Panic button. This pic makes me sad and confident at the same time.
     

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  11. ImpureHuman

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    This is true. But past can't be changed..

    Good luck.
     
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  12. uiop2

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    Thank you!
     
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  13. mrabdirahman17

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    The process will takes time, keep going bro, u will make it
     
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  14. uiop2

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    You will too, thank you! No urges today, feeling a bit better.
    Looking forward for the 90 days so :)
     

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    Feeling nervous, like i keep moving around and can't stand still.
     
  16. uiop2

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    Feeling tension and i'm nervous again, there's a voice in my head telling me "this is not the right decision, trust me just give up this is too much for you" it comes in waves but i wanna keep going.
     
  17. uiop2

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    Everytime i do something for myself that i feel right there's always this voice telling me to give up, that i'm not enough to do it...
     

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