Confession... 28 Days no PMO

Hi all. I am so frustrated sitting here at work on a Monday morning, after what happened this last night.

Just a quick backtrack, back when I used to PMO everyday. I would do it a while before going to bed, seeing as my computer is in my room and I sleep with a closed door. Last night at about 9'o clock, I got this huge urge to watch P. I went to my room at about 10:30 and I gave in to the urge, thinking let me just watch go and look at it for a minute, just to satisfy my urge. 1 minute, 5 minutes then 15 minutes goes by. Go to bed, having this massive rush, waking up this morning feeling anxious and worried, not to mention the brain fog.

Now I did not edge or o at all, to be honest I really did not want to. Don't get me wrong, I was very sexually active at the time, but I just didn't want to m at all . All I wanted to do was look at p. I regret it so, I was 28 days clean with no PMO (or even looking at a woman in a sexual way). I'm feeling so ashamed and disappointed, yet funny enough, feeling even more motivated than ever before. Realizing, that I still have a quite a ways to go, before I am in control this addiction.

I have been pmo on and off for about 6 months now, only recently joined NoFap forums and have been on my longest streak ever since. So glad I stumbled across this forum, just reading through the threads of people on a daily basis motivates me to continue fighting this addiction.

 

Indeed, thanks for the encouragement. 90 days would be a great milestone, but hoping for a lifetime of NoFap is the dream, a dream worth fighting for. Taking it day by day, always chasing but never catching.

Will be starting up a journal soon, maybe should have started doing it sooner , oh well.