I've been porn free for almost three years now. The hard reboot was hard, really hard. But the waste land that my mind had become has really healed. My relationship with my wife and family has strengthened considerably and I'm greatful beyond words to be able to close my eyes and not have flashing images go through my mind. Once in Blue moon, my mind might burp a image or scene from something I looked at or read in the past. But I try to visualize deleting it from my mind and memories with a strong push. I have taken up jewelry making to occupy my mind if I wake up in the night. It has even helped around the house with fixing things and making cool things for my wife and kids. I still avoid triggers, but I don't have any porn urges anymore. I went to numerous anonymous meetings sex, drug and alcohol and I took something from each of them. The biggest thing I learned was don't trust anything you think in the reboot (you'll lie to yourself without even realizing it). I also learned it can always be worse. The best result you can expect from the degradation of humans, sexes and the mind is the total destruction of your soul. It's like Tolkien's lord of the rings and holding the ring thinking you'll only use it one way and then slowly become golumn from the inside out. My best friend (my wife) was my accountability partner and she saved my soul. I can honestly say I owe her my heart and I am in awe of the depth of her. I also greatly appreciated Nofap and the hard work others put into developing training videos and tools to educate what porn does to the mind and body. They also helped with ideas to remove the parasitic hold porn has on the mind. Thank you all and be strong if your fighting your way through the reboot.
So encouraging and congratulations!! Thanks for sharing your story, i so hope so, i will be sharing such an immense story in the future. Be blessed.
First off great job!, i would say my biggest weakness is the urges, its so awful having a throbbing sexual urge in my genitals all the time, like damn how do you even ignore something like that?.
Get up and do something that requires all your attention. for me it was making jewelry, fixing things around the house, taking care of things I'd been putting off. If I'm making something or sewing something I lose track of time and the urges. And when I'm done I have created something beautiful. Exercising may help a well. But most my urges were centered around nighttime and early morning
Great work man! Good to hear that the mental images subside, and it does indeed make sense to me (at the moment) to see it almost as a good v evil process. Binary, simple. Good luck to you!
Great job man and Im sure the wife is happy. Now I just need to get to 6 months and then 1 year, 2 year and I can make it to 3 years.
