It's 8:22 and fifteen minutes ago I relapsed for the first time since I moved to college. I had some slips where I looked at some pornographic stuff but I didn't masturbate so I didn't reset untell today when I had a full pmo session and I can feel the drain on my brain and the rush of chemicals in my head and I can tell that my thoughts are sluggish and slow and I want to consult the NoFap community for what you individually after a relapse. I want my mind to be in top form for classes so any feed back is great
This is going to be a long journey. I've currently around 120 days of NoFap. I was a freshmen last year. I wasn't social and I stressed out so much. In result I would masturbate a lot. I mean around 2-3 times a day. I had a girlfriend long distance. She was in high school and she was going to y college and we planned a future together. We were together 3 years. Never had a problem sexually. However, when I visit her during break I suffered from PIED. At the time I didn't know it. Everything was perfect until then. We ended up breaking up and I lost my future. Everything we planned for 3 years suddenly vanished. I went into depression. Thoughts of not living anymore, not caring slowly followed. That's when I read about nofap. I realized I had a problem and i wanted to improve. It was hard, I had relapses quite a bit. However, I started going to the gym, focusing on myself and studies, joined a flag football team, and joined a club. Those things kept me grounded. Kept me busy. After 120 days I'm able to get morning wood more frequently. I'm able to get a spontaneous erection. And I'm no longer in the clutches of P. It's a hard journey man. Just keep grinding and know there's a light at the end of this dark tunnel.
