Childhood fetish and masturbation ruined my libido for months even after quitting masturbation

For starters, I suffered from a masturbation addiction due to a natural fetish and not porn. Just thought I should clarify this before saying what I need to say.

Holy crap, I have masturbated to this fetish so much since I was 13. Did prone masturbation and all that good stuff. Sometimes I did it once a day other times I did it 5 times a day. 3 years later (I think), in early 2023, I stopped a LOT. I have consistent weekly and monthly streaks. I just ended like a 100 day streak and I'm on a 40 day streak right now.

Now my goals are a bit different. I DO want to quit masturbation, but I have been succeeding at doing so for the wrong reasons. See, my goals for nofap are to reset my sex drive so I can normally be attracted to women of my normal fetish again and not need to require so much novelty or high standards.

My libido has been absolutely dogshit. I haven't had the urge to masturbate in months. No matter how many times I try to fantasize or peek, I just can't get horny like I used to. Even now, when I just slipped when I found a woman who had my fetish on TikTok, I could barely get turned on. It's been like this for months. I haven't been deeply attracted to a woman in months either, with the exception of wet dreams. Now I know that one can argue that peeking may be hindering my progress, but I kind of can't control seeing my fetish since it can be an everyday feature for some women, so I can just "peek" whenever I go out in public. And that also means that I can come across it nonstop on social media, which is how I "slipped" just now, so I don't (well didn't) need to watch anything pornographic to get sexual satisfaction. By all means, if that's still a problem, please tell me how I can improve.

I mean it's not just the fetish that's not turning me on either. Almost no one is turning me on. Not even the "hottest" models or celebrities are doing anything for me. Not normal women. And I don't want to watch porn to try to see where my sex drive is currently at, so I just sit here stressed wondering why my libido is so trash for so long. I don't think im flatlining cause my emotions aren't that bad and nothing is really wrong with me besides the fact that I have 0 Libido. I don't have depression extreme unhappiness or anything, just no drive.

I just wanna know if anyone is in the same boat as me, struggling with a natural childhood fetish since childhood or suffering from an extremely low libido. I mean I'm still a teenage boy, I shouldn't be like that. If ANYONE has advice, I would kill to know. I wish I just never installed social media.

 

I thought it was a flatline but honestly I feel fine. Nothing is wrong beside the fact that im just not horny. But if that isnt the case then should I just be patient and stop peeking?