chastity fetish do a link with Boobs (tease) and with abstinence

Hi Fellas !

I was feeling good these days, better than average, like at the end of a flatline.

But oh my god, for the first time since a long time, i was tempted 2 time with massive urges. I finished to watch student girl and black girl (random girl on instagram, not instagram model or porn one) with good boobs 10 minutes two times, no touch, no friction, just a glance to. Too hard to resist. It was like massive urges like at the beginning ! What's happening ? I'm healing so my urges will grow???
It's my first time i do a mistake during my streak...

(because i had the habit to use instagram and boobs overall to tease me for the chastity fetish, so i was doing that with the girls i knew in the past, stole her clothes and wore them. Taking creepshot and candidshot pictures at the same time. For the moment i don't feel any urges about clothes hopefully)

I'M NOT SURE IF I WAS AROUSED BY THE GIRL OR BY THE FETISH, BECAUSE IT WAS A GIRL (BLACK) WITH A KIND OF BREAST I LINKED WITH MY FETISH IN THE PAST... i was checking the account of a friend to write to her


What did i do? Do i am screwed ? All sexual content (random girl too so?) is now linked with my old fetish ?

So as soon as i find my big libido and testosterone back, ass, boobs and abstinence of every girl have a chance to trigger me in the future?

sun of a bitch of addiction, God will make me paid for what i did ? I thought that the festish subsided. I didn't feel desire for it. But i'm wondering if my brain tied boobs, ass and abstinence with the fetish of chastity ? So i need to die alone ?!

Do i have a chance to rewire ? Do i need to have normal sex and normal wire (so have sex and change my view of boobs? because i'm virgin with almost no experience) to make the change? Or do i need time?

I need your help and hope today fellas !