Challenging myself to a 15 Day Fetish Abstinence. Any1 else got some weird fetishes?

Hello everyone! I was reading this book called "Your Brain on Porn: Internet Pornography and the Emerging Science of Addiction" and I found out about this online community. I've been reading about numerous success stories and they were, indeed, overwhelming. I'm fully convinced that addiction to porn and fetish stimulation is a very difficult ordeal to triumph upon, and it takes a herculean effort to do so.

I'm different from the majority of most people. I was never aroused with watching "normal" porn, as in watching sexual intercourse. I'm sort of bugged and actually don't know the reason behind it, but I'm severely addicted to my fetishes: I have a shoulder riding fetish, spandex, and foot fetish. Every single day, I would waste 5-8 hrs of my time watching videos with such content on different sites. Countless times before, I would try to abstain from watching fetish videos for just one week - but I've never succeeded. Never in my life was I able to gain control of this vicious and self-destructive habit. I would flunk quizzes, be absent from class, plunge down into depression, and give up my ambitions - all for the sake of instant gratification in the form of masturbating to fetish videos.

Thankfully, I've found this community where I can eagerly share my experience and relate with everyone also struggling with the same ordeal I face.

I WILL gain control and I WILL not give in. This shall be a milestone in my life, for I WILL become a changed person I've always aspired to be.

I will write my journal and track my progress here. Cheers to us Faptronauts!

Btw, here's my journal:
http://www.nofap.com/forum/showthre...-Abstinence-Let-s-do-this!-No-excuses-allowed

 

Btw, here's my journal:
http://www.nofap.com/forum/showthre...-Abstinence-Let-s-do-this!-No-excuses-allowed