Honestly I don't know if this pleasure is "real" or not...I just cannot decide... I think it is not, because it is kinda "rush" feeling in my brain, mixed with shame and guilt...but at the same time it is arousing... But honestly girls don't do anything to me in the last 1-2 years... But I remember I used to turned out just the thought of what could I do with a hot woman (when I saw one in the street...) The only things which could turn me on sexually now it is "sissy" things....but I really think I am not gay because I MUST IMAGINE MYSELF AS A WOMAN, to have attraction to guys...If I think about gay things when I identify as a man they disgusted me....but at the moment when I imagine myself as the girl it is "arousing", but kinda weird arousal.....it feels like I enjoy to "execute my masculinity"....because imagining myself as a feminized girlfriend of a "real man" is very degrading and emasculating, I've never thought that one day this will be the only thing which could turn me on.... I remember I used to LOVE TO BE a REAL MAN....What the fuck happened? I want my old alpha-male self back...
Same I couldn't watch gay pornography or transwoman and transsexual pornography and keep it up its not the same weird and different but won't try it in reall life
We punished our brains for years and it started to change and dictate new behaviors. In my mind this gave us a deformed wiring in our brain. Removing the familiar negative PMO is the first step, only the first step which we are doing. If we cannot pass this first step with all its trails we are bound to failure and more familiar behavior which we hate but are comfortable . The second step is to start training behaviors we want to replace the negative ones. Then I believe you can have either a better or lesser version of your old self but never the same. For me I'm trying to be the person I believe myself to be without regard to society's perception or judgement. Just going to be myself and work hard towards goals.
You're going down a dark path asking this question. Of course, it can! You're evidence of this very thing. No one was born to be a "sissy". Born to be a punk, to get tossed around, to die of Aids. These are things to fight against and to be wary of anything that can lead down this path. Yes, twisted forms of pornography can warp your brain. How do you think people end up as "sissies" in the first place. Something in their lives leads them down that road. There is a whole segment of porn and a portion of femenist[ man-haters] that are all about turning guys into sissies. In the case of the man-haters, it's women who use men's infatuation with women to manipulate down the sissie path. * Warning possible triggers, could be offensive and negative for some.* Don't listen to this "born that way " crap. Most of these posts are from a bunch of guys who think that way and of course are in some form of denial. All this " I just looked at gay porn/transgendered person porn for awhile but didn't really enjoy the orgasm" posts seem to be oblivious to the fact they were jerking off to dudes and how they got to the point of doing that? Glad to hear it didn't go further, and if they want to think it's their heterosexuality that stopped them from going further than beating off to gay porn, that is their business. The fact is their brains got twisted enough to have them wanking to dudes. Now while it's great they stopped, who is to say it could not have gone further. How deep does the rabbit hole go? How dark could things have gotten? Just because someone stopped at a certain point one time doesn't mean that is as far as it can go. Stay away from the poison. Yes it can warp you and turn you down a very dark path. No one was meant to be a sissy. Stay away from things that turn you in that direction.
I think you've misunderstood me....I've asked this question because I really believe that I was not born to be a sissy because I remember I loved to be a man....
