Cam free but not P free.

I've had a wonderful relationship ever since the near end of August this year. One of my co workers opened up to me and it has been a beautiful relationship. I would just love to say that I am cam free ever since early August. So about a few good solid months!

Really struggling though with porn. Yesterday was an absolute horrible day with covid stuff going on with her. I will be getting a test today as well. But Last night I could not process my thoughts.....

I apologize and I'll ask for forgiveness, but I watched a Star I was really fixating on because she had all my likings.. I kid you not I could not focus on anything else because I was feeling so down. I felt like a wreck...


I'm really confused with myself because I legitimately stopped Cams, but P is still current. I said to myself it wasn't good for me anymore and I stopped, but are there any tips for Porn? I'm really not sure if I'll have a slip up tonight with the same PS...

 

I believe it's the monkey mind's process of having a legit Woman in your room. Knowing your body is interacting with a Woman of your liking and true desire, so its like your actually doing it in an illusive way. Using Porn is an "easy access" stimulating responses even faster to mental thoughts.

Afternoon and night's are the absolute worst for me. Mornings I can power threw and feel clarity with waking up. On the down side near 2:30 I'll be in my bed for a nap or watching some TV's where it gets the best of me.

I wish they had Blockers for the phone, but the easiest block is to turn it off.