is it lust? never had s, don't like it. only like hugs, so no, it's not lust. maybe a longing for real companionship, the other part of relationship. lonely.
No idea. Does it really help to post about negative feelings here for you? Genuinely curious? Perhaps guidance offered to you will help, but I tend to view the most constructive use of the forum as coming here to share hope and strength. When one is facing a personal battle, sometimes they need to do some work offline and find connections that aren't digital. I'm not saying don't seek support here when you are struggling, I'm saying perhaps your heart is yearning for human connection offline the way nature intended Loneliness is something everyone suffers from, even those in relationships. You must learn to like being alone with yourself before you can attract others to you
