I went on a serious binge today. I want to turn this around. I have turned it around before- but only by making myself feel guilty and ashamed. I need to learn to control myself in other ways because it is excruciating and does not help in the long run. I just compulsively numb myself. Feelings are almost unbearable for me. I cannot understand why I cannot handle them
You'll get there mate. My last relapse was a binge. It really set in for me after because I found out why the reason I felt the way I did was due to withdrawal. Withdrawal only get worse and worse and I got fed up putting myself back in it and even further with symptoms getting progressively worse, which they did. You will have days in your recovery where you feel emotions ten fold so be prepared no that however strong they are they will be only temporary and not worth escaping to porn, embrace them.
