Big step

Hi all,

I took the huge step of deleting my porn collection an hour ago. I feel good about it, but also terrified.

I don't know why, but over the past weeks I have found myself just being bored and tired of the porn and masturbation and wondering if I can take this challenge on right now. Today I decided I am going to give this a serious shot.

I have been doing this for half my life. It's ebbed and flowed. When I was younger, I beat myself up about it and tried and failed repeatedly to make any headway. Back then my motivation was religious; I am active in my faith community and this is something that is not in accordance with my beliefs. However, I ultimately just told God I couldn't do it and gave up.

It was actually pretty eye-opening for me to find that there's a host of secular research and rationales for abstaining as well. This rings true for me.

Fast forward, I'm married, two little kids that wear me out, lots of responsibilities as we all do. In a nutshell, I am too old for this shit and I know it. I have noticed a lot of little things that I've failed to make progress on and, as much as I tried to deny it, I think a lot of it traces back to issues dealing with this daily addiction--and the time and energy I spend on it.

So like I said, I decided that I am ready to tackle this problem. My hope is that it will be easier than it was when I was younger, but I know that it will be hard. I am glad to have found this community and will be looking for an accountability partner. Good luck to us all!

 

Yes, rounding out the resources is what it's about. This website seems really good. So I've been at this for several days and its been easier than I thought and I'm already feeling an improvement in energy level, so I'm hopeful about things.