The longer that your brain heals, the more you see yourself with honesty. I thought that I knew myself when I began this in May of last year - that I was aware of my strengths and weaknesses . But I was blind. The first 90 was an eye opener. As I progress, I see more and more. In my life, I dealt with a certain amount of social anxiety that kicked my tail every day. I did not like who I was, so I never looked deep within. I felt inferior to a lot of people and superior to others. Pornography gave me the illusion of connection. I felt like a thousand beautiful women were connecting with me. In NO PMO mode, I am learning to stop, slow my brain down, and look at my life. My focus is much more interior now, and I focus on being a man of virtue and integrity. I am affirmed by living out a virtuous life for God and humanity. This has set me free to be a man of faith, integrity, and virtue to those around me. I'm not chained down anymore, I'm free. DO NOT QUIT!! I am fueled by curiosity - to see more of what I have missed in my life because of an addiction to PMO. I see more every day. Remember that this is NOT impossible to kick. You've got to be committed to get free. If I can do this you can do this. I did not think it would work, but I am living proof that it can happen. If you relapse over and over, there's a piece of the puzzle that you're missing. Something that you're doing or not doing, some belief deep within about the process that is being overlooked. Don't give up and don't give in! Find the root and knock it out. I struggled with this stuff for years, and I now know freedom from PMO. GOD'S PEACE!!!