38/207 I told my alcoholic dad if he doesn't stop alcohol, I will leave him. Half my life I have been affected by his addiction, and I can't anymore. He must change or I will. My dad starts drinking even before the sunrise and the moment he wakes up he goes for more pegs again and again, in the nearby locality, where they sell it from their home itself. I am already dealing with multiple crises and I really can't deal with his addiction anymore. If he is ready to visit a counselor I will help him, and I have given him a day to decide if he wants to visit or not. Let's see what happens tomorrow. I am sorry to vent it out. I have been drained telling him to stop this, and had arguments after arguments for so many years.
I am wishing all the best for you. Remember that you need to make the right decision for your life and yourself, to make sure you are living comfortably and happily.
Yes, I deserve a peaceful life. Impulsively I utter a lot of words which I should not say to him. But it is really really difficult seeing him drunk almost everyday, and not get frustrated and angry. He deserves a chance to be sober and leave his addiction. And I will support him in this via counseling and therapy. But if he does not want to change, I will make a decision.
Guys here at 125 days, got hit by surprise with heavy-duty urges. Was innocently looking for movies to watch and like three in a row all had really hot chicks in the movie poster. When you don't watch porn for 4 mos. I guess that's all it takes sometimes lol. Anyway there's no frigging way I'm jeopardizing my goal here so I stopped the fantasizing right away by going into the other room and doing some work to distract myself. Ok, continuing onward for another day.