Back with an update

Hello friends! As you know, I left the community a week or so ago for my mental well-being. I decided to come back temporarily and give a life update regarding what I am currently experiencing in my reboot. First, I have not reset my counter or plan to. That cursed counter will keep you in a never-ending cycle of relapses and feelings of failure. I do not beat myself up when I accidentally see a picture of a naked woman or something sexual on Facebook or the internet. I block the image/page and move on with my life. I decided to quit vaping/chewing tobacco as well yesterday, so I am experiencing a lot of cravings. My energy levels over the past two days have been insane, and I feel pretty good overall. If my Christian walk has taught me anything, it's that we cannot live life legalistically. Humans do not do very well when strict rules are in place. Many people on this website have a very narrow and strict mindset, like everything has to go perfectly or you are doing it wrong. I have learned to live life one day and one challenge at a time. I shall come back for another update in a month or so. See you guys then!

 

I decided I had to quit before I get cancer or something else. I hate the fact that I need nicotine 24/7 or I begin acting like a cracked-out junkie, that's no way to live. I want to live life addiction-free and happy. Best of luck to you as well!

 

It has been 7 days now for me. I have experienced a lot of urges but nothing to bad surprisingly. I can already tell you my ability to fall asleep has majorly improved since quitting. My energy levels have also been more stable and I am not tired as much.

 

I have been struggling a lot today with thoughts about relapsing and giving up. The desire for PMO is actually ways stronger then my desire for nicotine surprisingly. How can nicotine, a substance so addictive few manage to escape be less addictive then PMO? That just goes to show how overwhelmingly addictive it can be and why it's so hard to stop.