I've been on and off of abstaining from masturbation and porn over the course of the last 4 years or so. When I realized that my behavior was problematic, I signed up on this forum, posted here and there and made a commitment to not give in to my urges. I had a hard time doing so but most importantly I simultaneously felt very motivated to fight my addiction. Then, life got in the way and I stopped browsing this forum. I went back to masturbating because I felt too busy to deal with this addiction and all of the other stuff in my life at the same time. Occasionally, I made new attempts because deep down inside me I still knew that this addiction is bad for me. However, those attempts never really lasted for more than a week. I never felt the same motivation as during my first attempt. Recently, I became somewhat nostalgic and thought about how my life evolved during the last years. It was at that moment that I realized how good my life felt when I was still on this forum because of how immensely it boosted my motivation to actually stick to my intention. During those times, life felt easy and I was definitely a lot happier, structured, productive and always tried to make the most out of my time. As a result, I am back! Back on nofap, back on the forum, back on getting a new grip on my life. From now on, I will abstain from masturbation and pornography (again) because I want to lead a happy and fulfilled life. It already feels great just having written all of this. Good to be back!
